So tagged me in her journal. And now I gotta give you ten juicy details about my life that you previously haven't known... oh boy o.o

1: I'm actually a very emotional person. I try to act like I know everything and look tough on the outside, but on the inside I'm almost always fighting with some crappy emotion or another - I just don't show it.

2: I have a crazy obsession with Plum Sake! Who cares that's I'm only 20, I crave the stuff like... all the time. I had ONE sip on my 18th birthday at a Japanese Steakhouse and I was hooked from then on. There's a bottle in the basement but I dare not sneak a drink XD

3: If you ever need to find something "legal" online, ask me about it. I have this weird luck when it comes to finding things online that I almost always find a genuine "legal" copy. I can get you... anything and everything. It's bad, I know, but my luck is just so helpful.

4: On the topic of food obsessions, I adore pasta. On one condition: it's raw. I eat pasta at least once a week uncooked. I've gone through the giant Sam's Club bags of macaroni and egg noodles in a couple weeks or so. It's so darn good.

5: I'm stuck in the middle of this weird social/antisocial tendency. I can "fill up" on socializing to the extent where even if I'm hanging out with friends I just want to be alone. It's weird and it sucks, but I can totally see myself being a hermit XD

6: Not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing, but I'm an overachiever. If I get a 3.5 in a class in college I feel like I failed the class and I get uber stressed out. On top of that I have a zillion things I do outside of school to keep myself busy, but somehow I tend to have a lot of free time where I'm totally bored.

7: I'm horribly shy! Put me in a group of people and I get ultra shy yet, somehow, I tend to take a leadership position in small groups. It's totally opposite, I know, but somehow that's what happens. I'm always afraid of hurting someone's feelings, so even though I may be thinking "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" in my head, I'll say "I dunno, maybe" outloud. I just need to get guts to stand up for myself.

8: Gothic clothes make me drool. I've always wanted to dress in all black with fishnet and eyeliner and chains and crazy colored hair but I know my parents would kill me. The first time I went into Hot Topic I felt totally nervous like I didn't fit in, but now I go there and just want to buy everything up.

9: My favorite flavor is sour. Sweet things don't really do much for me, but I can't resist sour candies. They taunt me so badly... must... resist... *twitch*. Also I'm obsessed with red hots >_>

10: Lastly (Okay, you get a personal one) the hardest decision I've ever made in my entire life was when I gave up my career path in aviation because it was either get help for my depression or I'd probably end up attempting suicide sometime the next year because I was so miserable. So I chose my life over my career and had to go to a shrink and am still on meds (though I'm on my last 3 months of them or so), but life is faaaaaaar better.

And I tag...


EDIT: While reading other entries, I thought of more random crap that I will add for the hell of it.

11: I hate feet. If you accidentally step on my bare foot with your bare foot, I will die a little inside. Socks BARELY make it better. If anyone ever curls their legs under them on the couch but their toes are touching my leg, I will actually move away. My family uses this against me.

12: And on the same topic, I hate napkins. Even my own. If I have to clear the table, I either pick up the napkin with two fingernails by the very edge of a corner (even the one I used) or demand that someone takes care of their own.

13: I have a minesweeper obsession! I've played the game probably around 300 hours in the last two years and the Windows 7 version is even more fun to play. I can beat expert easily enough (I usually fail due to a misclick) and can even do it without marking a single mine! Yeah, I'm scary good.

14: I've probably eaten more popcorn in my life than most people ever will. My family buys the popcorn in 40lb bags at Sams Club and we easily used it up in a year. Try and figure out how many 2/3rds cups that is.

15: At work and at home, I'm not happy unless I have something to do - especially at work. If I don't have things I'm doing I feel like I'm totally wasting time and I should be doing SOMETHING, even if that something involves playing video games and accomplishing nothing.

16: Strange thing for the admin of a writing forum to say, but I don't really like reading. I could easily do without reading simply because I know there's better/more fun things to do than stare at ink on a piece of paper (Please don't kill me reading-fans).

17: My favorite movie genre is the slasher and horror movies. You know, those movies that make you feel sick to your stomach? Yeah, I love them. If a movie doesn't have some type of violence, I'm usually bored out of my skull. The more gross they can make a movie the better.

18: I'm an anti-relationship person. I could care less if people are in a relationship, I'm happy for them, but myself personally I can't see myself being in a long-term relationship simply because it scares me. I've been in two long-termish ones already and I'm horribly loyal, so much so that I don't realize when I get hurt, but the idea of settling down with someone forever is spooky. I'll just have friends please. KTHNX

19: The friends I do have are very important to me. I don't make friends easily, so when I do I try and keep them as long as possible. I'll pretty much do anything for my friends even to the point where I've been used because of that. Losing friends has always hurt more than anything, so I avoid it the best I can.

20: I'm a no-touchie kind of person. I like my bubble so much I don't want it popped, unless of course it comes to good friends. But the majority of the time I don't like people touching me simply because I'm always thinking about how some people are dangerous so touch generates a "flight or fight" reaction in my head. Hugs between friends are fine, but anything outside that I don't like.

And I tag moar people now.